Monday, January 19, 2015

Pinterest Isn't Just for Window Shopping

The Dunes are just getting started at the lake's edge

I tried to join Pinterest a couple of years ago, but it seemed like one big fantasy window shopping spree sort of thing and I really didn't have the time or patience for that.

Suddenly the other night, it hit me how to really use Pinterest in a way that would help my students. And now the whole thing is just a BLAST.

Here is a sampling of my favorite boards that I've started. Get on over there and follow and play!

Defying the Age Story: Inspiration from seniors who aren't just sitting back and taking it easy.

Inspiring Movement: From outside dance and from anywhere! I even have an extreme biker on this board.

Great Movie Dance Scenes

Dance History

Videos that PLUG ME INTO SHINY: this is where I go when I need some energy. Just starting this board.

Weeklong Kintsugi Dance Immersion 2015: lots of photos from this amazing experience. You can get a wee glimpse into what I do here.

There are a lot of other boards and all of them are just in their beginning stages. I am so excited to grow these for you!

If you have any ideas for boards that you'd like me to build, just let me know!



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Friday, January 16, 2015

Impossible Things 2015: Number Five

Playing at the end of our weeklong immersion.
You can find more at my Pinterest!
(To read about my Impossible Things 2015 One through Four, go here.)
FIVE categories of Impossible Things are on my plate for 2015, and though I have those moments of panic and paralysis for sure -- what the hell am I thinking? am I just a freaking nutbag or what?!?! -- I also feel really good about this.

Challenged in a positive and exciting way.

Today we come to my fifth category.

This one has a long history.

And that history is weighed down by lots of baggage.

My fifth category is to write and publish books.

At this point in the year, this is the one category that feels most shrouded in mystery.

What do I even mean by "books?!"

Novels?  I have a whole manuscript that I think is good and that could be great if I gave it some attention and went in and ruthlessly CUT.

Poetry? I am constantly feeling the itch to get back to poetry, the form that Marcy thinks is my most natural.

Non-fiction/memoir? I keep getting ideas for these sorts of books but can't seem to settle on any kind of direction.

So as I work on my other impossible things, this one is the one that I need to approach most stealthily, I think. Let it naturally germinate. Await the signs, so to speak.

Just putting this in my head, just being clear that this is now an official intention...I do believe that puts the wheels in motion, and I don't mean in a woo woo way -- I mean setting intention tells my brain, "Work on this, please, while I am not looking."



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Thursday, January 15, 2015

Impossible Things 2015: Number Four

From the weeklong immersion last Fall.
For more photos and lots of other inspiring and
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(Click to find impossible things one, two, and three.)

Each day that I write about one of my five categories of Impossible Things for 2015, I keep thinking that THAT one is the scariest one of all.

All of these things just feel so damn...well...IMPOSSIBLE.

Which is the point, of course.

But there are these moments when I look at my lists and my breath gets shallow and I can feel the panic rising...and then the story machine gets activated and I start to really believe all the way to my toes that these things TRULY ARE impossible and I'm a total delusional dumbass for thinking otherwise.

And today is no exception.

Then I take a few breaths and just let the panic go. I have to. Once I commit to an idea, that's that, and I am committed to this idea that the things that feel impossible in that scary-meets-excitement way are the very things I AM capable of doing.

No one said it would be easy.

But it IS doable.

Category four is a big one for me. (Again...as they all are.)

I am a dancer.

There is all kinds of concrete evidence that dance has always been and continues to be the poor sister among all the arts. (I won't get into the statistics around grant money or the way dancers are never paid a living wage or any of that stuff because I don't feel like freaking myself out right at the moment.)

(We also won't get into the fact that dance is the most associated with prostitution throughout history and we won't look at the sociological reasons for this and the fact that most dancers are WOMEN and what that says about our patriarchal, misogynist culture and its fear of powerful women.)

Most dancers eventually have to deal with the reality that they are going to be teachers in a traditional dance school way or that they are going to have a million other jobs.

We'll be putting all of that aside.

And NOT because delusional.

But because there has to be a new way to do this, right?

SOMEONE has to think outside this stifling box of material and spiritual poverty in which we've put dancers and in which we dancers have agreed (consciously or not) to stay.

My Impossible Thing Number Four for 2015 is to make a GOOD LIVING -- as in good MONIES -- from dance.

Just writing about this is kinda making my palms sweat.

But here's the thing: The second I identified this as an impossible thing that I really believed was impossible, the ideas started FLOODING in.

I have an entire big giant newsprint sheet of paper covered in HOW to do this.

So stay tuned.  ((grinning))



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Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Impossible Things 2015: Number Three



(You can find my first two impossible things here.)

Flying around the world to teach and create is super scary, like I said, because death. In big giant tin can.

But my third impossible thing is its own kind of scary...

About 4 years ago (almost exactly, actually), I was lucky enough to experience an intensive with the world's most respected western and female Butoh artist, Maureen Fleming.

I was already teaching and I had already started to say that I wanted to perform again.

Maureen called me on it.

I was one of only 4 people in that intensive and she immediately thought we were all "advanced" enough (though I was brand new to Butoh) to put on a performance at the end of our time together. She told us it was our choice.

I was scared shitless but did it anyway.

And it was amazing.

The second the music started and I was moving in front of the audience, I thought to myself, "Oh, right...this is what I am meant to do..."

And I haven't done it since.

Part of this is definitely about a learning curve. It takes time to find your choreographic voice.

But part of this is definitely about being scared shitless again and not having someone telling me what to do.

This is all me.

I want to create pieces with groups but I also want to create pieces for ME. I want to share those pieces in a variety of ways.

So this year...this year of Impossible Things is THE YEAR. This I will do. Period.



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Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Impossible Things 2015: Number Two

Accomplishing this 2nd thing will take lots of candle lighting!
(My first impossible thing along with an explanation of Impossible Things is right here.)

I am pretty much scared shitless of flying. It's the lack of control and you know, the DEATH thing. And don't try being logical with me. Phobias don't respond to your freaking fancy logic.

So when I say this second category fits the Impossible Things criteria, it probably does so more than any of my other impossibles.

I want to travel all over this globe, not just teaching women the methods of Kintsugi Dance but putting them into practice to create performance pieces.

I want to travel to sacred places -- both natural and human made -- and for a week, work intensely with a group of women to make a piece that speaks to their experiences as women but also speaks to the sacred nature of the space we are sharing.

For 2015, the goal is to get this ball rolling.

That can take the form of getting plans in place but also going somewhere within driving distance to do this work for the first time.



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Monday, January 12, 2015

Impossible Things 2015: Number One

From The Radiance Sutras, trans. Lorin Roche, PhD
I announced before the new year that I would be working on Impossible Things in 2015. You can read about the idea here.

To sum up, this is all about identifying those areas in our lives where we tell ourselves stories that begin with things like, "I can't _____ because _____..."

These are things that meet at the intersection of excitement and fear. That's important, and you know what these things are because they give you a certain feeling in the belly.

I knew immediately what one of my Impossible Things was, but once I sat down with some big paper and markers, I realized that I have five categories of Impossible Things, and this week, I'll be sharing one a day.

The first Impossible Thing is about my body.

At the age of 46, I am definitely fitter than I have ever been in my life.

This morning by 9:30 -- and this is an average day -- I had already done a short run, some body weight circuit training, some yoga and stretching, and some pull-up training for my shoulders.

Later today I will do, at minimum, an hour of intensive dance work. And in February, I'll be adding a mid-day section to my daily training.

(That's one of the secrets: Only add one thing at a time, for about a month.)

All of this is out of necessity.

Without vigorous movement of this sort, I drop into depression and severe anxiety.

So first and foremost, my body work is about my mental and spiritual health.

After that, it's about my creativity.

And finally, after that, it's about my physical health.

Of course, you can't really separate them like that, but if you could, that's my priority list.

This year -- in service to my creativity -- I want to get even stronger and fitter.

My First Impossible Thing for 2015: GET RIPPED!

Now. Every single body is different, and I know I am not going to look like this because A) I'm not doing this for a LOOK but for a purpose (dance) and B) I don't put on muscle like that and C) I don't even wanna!

But more like this (according to Marcy who knows me so very well).

And again, I'm doing this for a couple of important reasons.

I'm doing this to show myself that I CAN.

I'm doing this because I see visions of things I want to express in my dance and I know the stronger I am, the more clearly this body will be able to speak those visions.

Are you doing anything Impossible this year?



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Friday, January 9, 2015

The Relationship of Body Size to Joint & Back Pain

Elders in class this week
Sometimes when we suffer from joint or back pain, we blame our weight, and mainstream medicine certainly adds to this myth. I know it's a myth because I've experienced it directly.

I have, for the majority of my life, suffered from chronic pain, until daily dance.

During that time of pain, I have been everything from a size 2 to a size 12 (U.S.), and it did NOT affect my pain -- decrease or increase it in any way. Even when I was very thin, I suffered just as much.

Movement. Movement. Movement.

Because you can feel good in this body no matter its size, and no matter its size, it is beautiful and it can be strong, vital, and healthy.



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